Whine.

This is sheerly to whine. I'm exhausted, I've had this ridiculous headache for days, my jaw is swollen and hurts, my back hurts, my left foot is still swollen and sore (has been for over 2 weeks now).... I'm stressing about getting into graduate school... I still can't find a job - I applied for a few more yesterday. I'm lonely and despite what I keep saying, I'm not over Erick.

Oh, and what is with guys acting like I was ever easy or like I can just go be a booty call or something? Even if I wanted to, you can't take a 2 month old (or any child at that) on a booty call. I'm a single mom raising this baby on my own, I don't get a break. I don't get to just leave overnight whenever I want (or ever) like the rest of these single moms. Sorry my sperm donor is a fucking loser and I don't want him anywhere near me or my perfect little man... not to mention the thought of sex disgusts me AND I've never been the hit it and quit it type. Yeah, I'm like the Kelly Clarkson song "I Do Not Hook Up". And I'm 1 month away from not having had any sex in 1 year. Born again virgin here.

I think Jonathan was in town, but he never called me. I haven't seen him since November 09. Ugh.

I just want a beer right now. I think I'm going to have one. T is sleeping for now.